Originally posted April 3, 2014
When is it safe to relax? Or even more so, when is it safe to give yourself up to a little emotion? There is this song that our church sings called "Oh Our Lord." It's a great song by Paul Baloche. As our worship group plays it, it employs an energetic banjo throughout and there is a great bridge where the bass comes in. When that bass hits, it's one of those moments where I want to let go and let the music wash over me. I'm not the charismatic type, yet my hands start inching up from my sides and up toward the ceiling--don't worry, they stop around torso level. Like I said, I'm not the charismatic type.
Aside from praising God, there is something else on in my mind during this song. As the bass comes in, I want to lean back, stop thinking, sing, and enjoy. But another part of me says that it is a dangerous activity to surrender my powers of analysis up to an experiential moment. I'm still in the fallen world, after all. There are still fallen people writing and singing this music. I might fall myself, physically, in some transport of emotion. How embarrassing would that be?
Yet I am in church, surrounded by friends, my husband is nearby, and the pastor is trustworthy. Heck, one of my good friends is the one playing the bass. Why can't I let go?
You may not be as tormented when it comes to music as I am, but surely you have felt this tension. It's related to the "If it feels good, do it" mentality. Most of us know that this is a dangerous mantra that can get your heart broken, your conscience stung, and your body seriously harmed. But I sometimes feel as if I've gone too far the other way: when something is good and feels good, like Paul Baloche's song as played by Brenham Bible Church, I still can't let powerful emotions get the upper hand. Yet surely singing "Oh our Lord. . .your name is a light in the darkness" doesn't require cool, distant analysis.
I guess it comes down to this: if it's your first date and that tall, dark handsome guy holds you close, you should have your guard up. Cool, distant analysis could save you. If that tall, dark, handsome guy is your husband of seven years, maybe it's okay to let your guard down and relax. He's been proven good, so it's okay to feel good around him. It's the same with God. He has been proven good, so it's okay to relax when singing to him. And if that relaxation comes with a little bass action, so much the better!